To Love Again

Many friends have asked if I would ever keep a dog after Ricky. I always say no because I can't bear to go through all that love, pain and eventual sense of loss again. Ever.

But that being said, I guess it's human nature to want to love and be loved again, even though it will most probably hurt again somehow, someday.

So, yes maybe I will keep one again in the future but that will only happen after I've properly mourned the loss of Ricky and I'm ready to care for another dog.

My baby's fine, btw. =) Ricky's eating (A LOT), barking (A LOT) and sleeping well. He really is a walking example of cognitive dissonance.

When Push Comes to Shove

Mum's angsty question of the month is "What's going to happen when Ricky is no longer able to walk (as a result of the large tumour & his weak legs)?" 

We know the implications. He won't be able to get to his drinking bowl and the feeding dish; won't be able to get to the balcony for his peeing and pooing; won't be able to kaypoh around anymore. 

To mum's question, my response is always "We'll decide when we get there." 

Because honestly, there is no point in worrying now. 

We will somehow know what to do when the day comes;

when a decision has to be made. 

I hope. 

A Hand to Feed Him

Ricky was walking away from his feeding bowl, his breakfast (bread) untouched when he saw me going towards him and the bowl. He stopped in his tracks, u-turned and watched me examining the bowl. 

"Come over," I signalled, sat myself down next to his bowl and started feeding him, a small piece at a time.

Slowly and purposefully, he nibbled and chewed the bread. When we had a momentum going, I stopped feeding and signalled him to eat on his own. He kept staring at my hand, continuing to wait for the next piece that was to come; completely ignoring the bowl of bread below my hand. With feigned exasperation, I continued feeding him until he abruptly stopped eating and turned away. The king is full. :) 

Sometimes, all he needs is someone to sit next to him and sayang him. 

:)